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2am... first day revision

It is 2am now...

Not very productive today...

Was suppose to start my revision on Friday night...

Then postpone to Saturday...

But... I just only started my revision... hehe...

Anyway... I promised myself tomorrow must study a bit harder...

Concentrate a bit more:P

I miss my mom...

Don't know how she doing...

Got Jet lag or not...

Yeah... Tomorrow!

I am gonna finish all the chapters for personal tax!!!

Jia You Jocelyn!!!

I privated my blog

Mmmmm....

I private my blog when I was a bit drunk....

Haha... till now still haven public back....

I guess... I felt restricted to blog...

Sometime I wanted to shout out something...

But I care on the people who read my blog...

Mmmm.... But I am sure one day I will public it again...

My mood has been changing up and down...

But slowly slowly... I am getting use to be alone...

Mmmm....

Saturday today... I was supposed to do my revision...

Unfortunately... I still haven started yet...

Been watching drama all the time... keke...

宫心计！very nice! I like it very much!

Don't know I should thanks the one who downloaded it for me or not...

Recently... I have been considering of going back Malaysia for good...

No conclusion yet...

Will make a decision after my exam...

Mmmm... and... I have been missing him recently...

I am glad that whenever I think of the scene that we together...

I will smile... It's all sweet and nice...

I am clear and understand that... there is no way and no chance for us to start all over again or... to be together back again...

But sometime I do imagine it :P

Just think la... Don't worry...

Sometime the pain that I feel just won't go away no matter how hard I tried...

I thought all the cruel things that you did that made my heartache will make me escape...

But... There are no way.... and today... I am still missing you...

I wonder how long I have not look at our pictures...

I wonder when was the last time we met...

I am sure time will cure... I will miss you if I do... I will look for you if i wanted to...

Let it goes naturally... I know one day I will officially over you:P

I do enjoy my single life though...

and I feel... I changed...

Not in a good way...

It's weird that there are still people dare to come to me though...

Mmmm... But... actually... I am quite happy about that...

Never expect that at all...

But anyway... he is still in my mind...

I am not ready for any new relationship...

Let us all remain as friend k:)

And... I really have to start my revision... like... now?

Been keep eating today don't know why...

I lost 2KG in 2 weeks...

Don't tell me I will gain that back in 1 day leh...

First day return to work

Today is my first day return to work...

And I was late to work cause didn't sleep well yesterday night...

So... quite hard to wake up in the morning...

Time flies... 2 weeks passed...

Fortunately I did lotsss of things within these 2 weeks...:)

But I really feel I am not ready to go back to work...

I am still sick...

Alan seems like hinting me to go back and don't spread the bacteria all around :(

Didn't realised that I been sick for 2 weeks...

Guess what... I used to like to fall sick...

I like coughing... I like running nose...

Cause I feel that made my voice become sexy...

But... Now... I wish I could get rid of this stupid coughing... Its hurt my throat so much...

Today working...

I feel Alan is quite happy to see my back to office...

Haha... maybe he feel finally he don't have to face Steven alone...

He treats me quite nice... I am happy for that...

The working hours seem like passed abnormally fast...

Oh ya... My mom reached Malaysia already...

I cried out loud in the airport...

Mami also cried...

She said... if at all you can't take it... You can always go home...

On the way back to Cheltenham...

I kept thinking the reason to go back Malaysia for good...

And there are lotss of them...

I really don't know what is my next step...

Will think properly after F6 Exam...

I will take next week off for revision...

7th December...

I am sure I will be fine for this paper...

I am gonna study very hard this time...

Concentrate and concentrate...

The house is so empty...

My face is full of tears...

I am really upset now...

My mind keep thinking of many things...

I feel so lonely...

I need someone to be with me badly...

I need someone to sleep with me...

I don't want this double bed anymore...

I hate this double duvet...

I don't like the room...

I feel so lonely...

I miss my mom so so so so badly...

I need him crazily...

I feel like running away...

I feel like running away from this place...

Mami leaving soon...

Mami gonna be back to Malaysia on 24th Tuesday night...

Time flies...

2 weeks gone...

I had a really really really nice time with her...

We never spent so much time together for so long before...

She always busy with her work and I seldom at home...

I love being around her...

She always tells stories and advices...

I will be as successful as her...

I will make her proud again...

I will buy her another ticket to come to UK!

I am sure... I will miss her badly once she leaves UK...

I will really miss her...very very very badly...

Can't imagine how it going to be on Tuesday...

Mi... You must take care of yourself when you are alone in Malaysia...

May god bless you and stay happy forever ok?

No matter what you do...

I will always support you and stand on your side...

I am sure you are doing the right thing... :)

Love you always...

Wow...

I am a bit high now...

Very dizzy OMG...

I wish I can drink more...

Cause Mami is here...

Can take care of me...

Had a really good chatting session with Jeff and Wai Leng's Family...

It's nice making new friend and sharing experience and stuff...

Make me forget of something at that particular session...

I'm really... very emotion now after a glass of red wine...

I realized... I have not been crying properly for....

I have not been thinking properly for...

I have not been emotionally down for...

I feel something is really missing...

Some part is really missing...

Whole thing is not completed yet...

Mmmm.. There are many things I got to do... After 24th Nov...

I had to start my revision...

OMG... too many to catch up...

But I think I can handle...

Calculating bill and plan for my budget...

Cause I think I overspent d...

Plan for Christmas...

My sis will be here during Christmas...

And... I have to start dating...

with... all of YOU...

time to wake up...

time to see things clear...

time to see... the real world...

I will be strong...

Internal and Externally...

Just like... YOU....

My graduation ceremony

Hi everyone...

I am super happy today...

I enjoyed the graduation ceremony...

I am sure the rest does as well:)

I thought it will be quite boring but it's not!

Before the ceremony people did ask me whether am I exciting or not...

But I was like... Mmmmm... not really...

But! When I put on the gown... and getting ready...

I was like... OMG... what am I wearing?

Ruby asked me... "Jocelyn! Can you believe you are actually wearing it?"

I was like... YA!!!

It's really a very special day...

Yes, I agree that the ceremony is nothing special...

Just walk up the stage and shake hand...

Yeah... I did feel like that before the graduation...

I was like... ah? The certificate not get from the stage 1 meh...

Why we take from the counter 1?

But no... after the graduation...

I feel the whole process of getting there...

Choose what to wear...

Make up...

Dress up...

Going there...

Putting on the gown...

Take pictures...

Waiting...

Walking up to the stage...

Shake hand...

Take pictures...

Receiving presents....

Returning the gown...

All these mean a lot a lot a lot to me...

Something that I will remember for life...

After the graduation... I feel like... wanna study master... phd...

Really... I so envy the PHD graduated student...

They must be feeling honored...

And Yeah...

Thanks to my dear Mami...

Thanks for everything...

Thanks for the flower...

and... thanks for the hug...

OMG... after the ceremony...

my mom came and hug me...

I was like... OMG... my tears wanna come out d...

Thanks for coming all the way to attend the ceremony...

Thanks for all the advice...and support...

I love you Mami...

And also to my beloved friendssssssssssssssssss

Thanks for coming to my graduation!!

It means a lotsssssssssss to me!!!

Alice, Bernard. Kit Wah, Gary, Shealin, Karthik, Peh Ling, Felicia, Bee Peng, Dayna and Denise!

Thanks for those who took care of my flowers and bear bear...

Thanks for those who hold the camera!

Thanks for those who congratulated me!

Thanks for those who take pictures with me...

I really really appreciate it...

I am really really happy today...

Thanks god for making everything smooth...

3 of us... came together... gone through lots of things:)

Nice memories:) Keep in touch Sammi!

Me graduated!

Mami so pretty...

Nice pic!

Congratulation Ruby...

Muacks!

Paul! Finally get the chance to take pic with him!

Denise... my personal Tutor... But... Seldom meet her 1...

Hurrrayyyy!!!!

Came back home... Take pictures with flowers and bear bear:P

And yeah... Finally... I got this!!!

It will be perfect if it come with a book with it!

Here comes the Rome's pictures I

7 Euro!

First stop! Spanish Step!

Finally climbed up...

Shopping street!

Trevi Fountain! I love this place!

Mami in Trevi Fountain:)

Yummy.... Expensive also....

Here comes the Rome's Pictures! II

Niang! See! Your Name!

Mami with Colossuem:)

mmmm... I like it...

The view is soooo nice...

wow... amazing...

Inside Colosseum

The Arch of Titus

Before leaving Colossuem

before entering Vatican city:)

I love this place... so much...

Jocelyn in Vatican City:)

Vatican City... There is where the Poop stand!

I love Rome...

People here are nice...

Places are nice...

I will be back again...

Let me save more money first...

I wanna do some shopping in Rome...

I can't wait to go Florence and Venice as well..

I am sure they are equally nice!