I were supposed to...

There isn't a word to express my feeling now...

I were supposed to be in the bus and on the way to Stansted airport now...
I were supposed to be in Rome at 9am...
I were supposed to visit Trevi Fountain and make a wish there...

Everything was planned nicely and perfectly...
I wanted so much to visit Rome and I thought my dream will come true...
And... I am totally speechless now...

I were angry... extremely angry...
I am sure you will know how much you will be upset and angry when you planned and wished a perfect trip after being stressed out by work and study but it ended up not going because of some very "unreasonable" reason...

I'm not suppose to work tomorrow but today I have to tell my director that I'm sorry but I have cancelled my holiday and I would like to work tomorrow...
When I asked him... oh my god... I just feel that I am so irresponsible...

I tried my best to swim the fastest I can in the pool...
I wish I could release some of my anger... and I think I did...
I tried my best not to complain just to make my B feel better... and wouldn't feel guilty...

I don't know what were you thinking...
But, I respect your decision...
I believe that you will have your own reason and that's why you stand so strong on your decision...
But, at least... tell me what's the problem...

It wouldn't be fair for me...
I am a victim as well...