One realizes that human relationships are the tragic necessity of human life; that they can never be wholly satisfactory, that every ego is half the time greedily seeking them, and half the time pulling away from them.

Willa Cather

卡片和鲜花。。

都来得太迟了。。

你那憔悴的脸。。

真的让我无法正眼看你。。

你说你会是我想要的那一个。。

你说你不会放弃。。

何必呢。。

此时此刻。。

我只想一个人生活。。

分手了。。
没有激烈的争吵。。
也没有哭泣的声音。。
很平静得和平分手。。

庆幸的是。。
回忆里的我们。。
总是开心的。。
我们本来就很少会有大吵大闹。。

我很惭愧。。
我承认。。
感情的开始。。
是因为前一段感情的结束。。
对不起。。
但或许你真的不介意。。

或许得来容易的东西。。
往往都不会被珍惜。。

或许年龄真差距。。
也是原因之一。。

你生活了20年在只有自己的世界里。。
但却忘记了在第21年出现了的我。。

你可以不把我放第一。。
但我不喜欢不被重视的感觉。。
我知道我常常都不是你在multiple choice里会选的答案。。
但起码把我列入你的考虑范围之一。。
或在你做选择之前告诉我你会选的答案。。
好让我觉得我是被你重视的。。

我不需要你爱得死去活来。。
我要的就只是那区区的安全感。。
别让我觉得你会一瞬间消失。。
但你偏偏却不知道要如何建立起那抽象的安全感。。

你曾说过你要的是一个招之即来，挥之即去的女友。。
当时我不惊讶。。我知道这就是你。。
但我绝对不会是你想要得。。
同样的， 你也不是我想要拥有的男友。。

我不喜欢逛街时你追不上我的步伐。。
但为何我不慢下来呢？

我最喜欢唱歌。。
但你说你不唱歌。。因为天空会下雨。。
曾经几次我要你唱歌给我听。。
你竟然说我把你玩具。。

我喜欢游泳。。
但你却不会游也不喜欢游。。
我喜欢打羽球。。
但你也不会打也不喜欢打。。

我不逼你做任何事。。
但我心里却有那么一点的希望你可以为了我尝试去喜欢运动。。

最后证实了你还是喜欢做自己喜欢的事。。
而你喜欢的事永远都不会是为了别人做的事。。
你永远都不明白。。
我付出想要的回报，是你得微笑。。

我好想去学习如何成为一个永远都会知足的女友。。

别再告诉我你会再次拥有我。。
别再告诉我你还爱我。。
别再告诉我你会变成我想要的男友。。
别再告诉我有一天你会回到我身边。。

经验证明了。。

重来一次的感觉。。不会比从前的好。。
也不会有美好的结果。。

The cutest letters...

BB gonna be back in 2 hours time...
I am gonna cook soup and his favorite prawn omelettes with rice to reward his hard work...
Keke...

B... your drawing very cute... hahahaha... can't stop laughing after seeing it... I like it:)

Real China 50% off Lunch Buffet... DAI!

Suddenly think of Real China 50% off lunch buffet!!
Really worth!
Just £3.50 leh...
I tried twice!! NOT BAD NOT BAD :) Wanna go again next week :P
If you wanna save more then can order Chinese tea for only £0.60...
Tape water is free but I feel guilty ordering it since it's already so cheap:P
Let's go.....

New Flat :)

Wow... finally... ya really finally we viewed a nice property that ruby and me are both happy with it (we viewed more than 20 properties already) and we faster make the payments in case it will be gone again like last time the Handover street!!!

It's just located exactly in town center (St George street) !! The first thing in my mind was... 'Yes! 2 minutes to Tesco! 1 minutes to McDonald and I can just simply go and buy a cup of my favorite hot chocolate!' Hahaha...

It's a nice property but unfortunately it's unfurnished... So we have to buy our own bed...

By the way! To those graduated fellows who wanted to stay in UK for work... The council tax is quite expensive... It will cost like over one thousand per year and it depend on the house that you staying... Eg. if it is a 2 rooms flat then it will cost about £100 per month for the whole property... So when you find a house make sure that you include the council tax in your budget as well :( very expensive actually :( over budget already... hopefully my director will increase my salary a bit la... since I am now graduated...

We should be moving in on the 1st of August la... So... wait for our house warming ya:P I'm really looking forward to move though :P

Free cycle

There is no free lunch in the world but...
There is a free cycle in the world!!!
We just got this for... FREE!!!
Absolutely FREE!!!

Haha... Unfortunately we paid £6 for taxi...
Cause initially we thought is a coffee table...
DIM ZHI... is a fold-able table...
But good also... can be a dining table for our new house:P

Actually so far we have taken 2 big table (which is really nice 1), 1 sofa (very heavy) and 1 printer (no cable) from free cycle...
Really love the concept!

Hurray!!!!

Haagen-Dazs~

Hehe...
Thanks B...
I love this letter the most...
Always feel sweet when I think of it :P

So Sweet~

I am really sad this morning...

My mind just kept thinking we were supposed to be in Rome now...
I am not supposed to work today...
I am not supposed to be in this mood today...
And why am I still in UK?

Plus...
You gonna leave me for 4 days again...
I know you were not willing to leave after all the problem remain unsolved...
But we understand that works are much more important and the most important is we still have plenty of time to be together:)

And... I can't believe you did something so romantic to me :P
I know you must be feeling stress as I kept telling you that I am feeling insecure...
That's why today you put in slightly more effort just to make sure that I won't be that bored during the weekend :P


I love it so much B...
I really LOVE IT :)
This is what I mean when I tell you I don't want and don't need something big or expensive...
All I want is just something small but full with your loves :)

Thanks for the letters...
I wish I could open all of it right now:P

Dont worry B...
Work hard and play hard there:)
Wow... so envy that you can stay in a caravan!
It gonna be fun:)
I will take care here and you do the same ya:P

I lost it!!!

I lost my BIKE!!!
It has gone when I need it the most!!
Someone steal it!
Who Who Who!!
I want it back!!!

I thought my office's car park is the safest place in Cheltenham to lock my bike there...
DIM ZHI!!!
When I came out from my office...
Take out my key and turn left!
Oi!! Why nothing there one!!!
"Where is my bike!!!!!!!!"

Haih... somewhere la...
So sad... now it belong to someone greedy and ugly :(

I were supposed to...

There isn't a word to express my feeling now...

I were supposed to be in the bus and on the way to Stansted airport now...
I were supposed to be in Rome at 9am...
I were supposed to visit Trevi Fountain and make a wish there...

Everything was planned nicely and perfectly...
I wanted so much to visit Rome and I thought my dream will come true...
And... I am totally speechless now...

I were angry... extremely angry...
I am sure you will know how much you will be upset and angry when you planned and wished a perfect trip after being stressed out by work and study but it ended up not going because of some very "unreasonable" reason...

I'm not suppose to work tomorrow but today I have to tell my director that I'm sorry but I have cancelled my holiday and I would like to work tomorrow...
When I asked him... oh my god... I just feel that I am so irresponsible...

I tried my best to swim the fastest I can in the pool...
I wish I could release some of my anger... and I think I did...
I tried my best not to complain just to make my B feel better... and wouldn't feel guilty...

I don't know what were you thinking...
But, I respect your decision...
I believe that you will have your own reason and that's why you stand so strong on your decision...
But, at least... tell me what's the problem...

It wouldn't be fair for me...
I am a victim as well...