Falling ill...

Work has been really busy...
I am feeling ill...
Tomorrow flying off to HK...
Hopefully everything went well...
I am so tired... not feeling well...
I am sure everything will be fine =)
Finger crossed =)

Got a Christmas Present from Mark!
He is so kind =)
Very kind of him =) Thank you...
It is a book and a box of chocolate =)
I like it =)

Hopefully the world doesn't end tomorrow!
I will live longer to see the beautiful world =)

Heartbroken

I am almost 88.88% manage to get rid of you out of my mind...

You seem like a stranger for me...

I don't find it comfortable to chat with you anymore...

I can go a ahead and think my babe... is dead...


Everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go.
Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right.
You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.
Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

I truly believe that...

I wish people doesn't change

I wish relationship doesn't go sour...

You thought me well babe...

You are scary... cold blooded....

But thank you for leaving me... truly appreciate it....

I miss you...

Hi... How are you...
I miss you...
I miss you...
And I miss you...

I miss you...
I miss you...
And I miss you...

I try to imagine you are death...
I try to not look at you profile...
I try to think of someone else...
I try to... focus on some other thing...
But... at this hour...
I am still missing you...

I wish... everything was just a dream...
I want to wake up from this bloody bad dream... I miss you...

E & J has come to an end....

Hi... It was 2 years ago since I last blog...
I don't think there is anyone else out there reading my blog...
Which is good...

I have not been doing very well...
As I just lost a 3 years relationship...
A relationship that I initially thought...
Will last eternally...

I am very reluctant to let go the relationship...
I don't feel like giving up...
I seriously don't... But... unfortunately... a relationship doesn't work
when... you are the only one who has been trying...

I will let it go... let it go... let it go slowly...
I have been asking my friend...
Was I like this when I broke up with the previous two relationships...

Ruby says... no... when I ended with Dominic... it seems so easy for me...
Well... I dont think so...

Then she said... When I end with Rex... I have had some hard time...

I am afraid of the sad feeling... And it is so difficult for me to cope with it....
Maybe... I have not been having hard time like this for quite some time...

I.....
I just got to be strong... I just got to believe....
This is a good decision for me as this is what he said...
I  just got to believe him... I just got to believe him....

Babe... babe... I really miss your appearance...
I really miss you...
I miss the way you look at me... I miss hugging you... Miss the way we hold our hand...
Miss the way we hug each other... I miss you so much...

I got no idea... how to let go... I deleted your mobile... I deleted your messages... deleted your what's app... deleted you from FB.... whatelse... all these doesnt mean... you will be deleted from my mind....

Move on... what does it mean... as I cant force myself from not missing you...

I am tired... I wanna sleep... good night