Career...

Today is my last day working in Francis & Co before exams... I requested for a month holiday... It seems a bit long... that mean I need to live with no income at least a month... gosh... Luckily My director Warren is expecting me to be back on 18th May... Hopefully he wouldn't find someone to replace me in the mean time la... please please please...

Today I received an email from Mark, My ex-manager from Xerox! I am not sure whether it is a good news or not... It should be a good news but I am not as happy as what I thought, he mentioned that Trevor, my ex-director who has quit his job in Xerox and work in Hertz is recommending me to his friend who owned an accounting firm in London. On top of that, Mark has communicated with HR about me returning to Xerox plus Robert, the tax director is looking for a potential fresh graduate student as well...

All these are what I have been looking for... get a permanent job in UK... and now the opportunity come without my effort... I should be appreciate it... but, I am a bit scared of living in London alone without Ruby... I am too dependent on her:( When I imagine me staying in London with all my own... gosh... it is killing me... Initially, we thought it is definite that we would not be able to find a permanent job here in UK because of the financial turmoil. So, we were planning to take ACCA course in University of Gloucestershire and part time working in Cheltenham... We even looking for houses to continue stay in Cheltenham for another year... but...should I double consider it again? What is the next step I suppose to take?

To be honest I actually prefer to study in stead of working...I would like to complete another professional examination on top of my degree... and I guess previously I were making excuses that I definitely would not be able to find a permanent job here in UK and blamed it to the credit crisis... But actually, I never even try to apply 1 vacancy...:( I am sorry... :(

It will also be a problem for me if I choose to continue study for ACCA... cause I have to use my own saving for my tuition fees plus I have to settle the cost of living by my own... this year were easy for me as I got sponsorship from the University... so my cost of living can be fully covered by my pay. But for ACCA... I got to pay the tuition fees by myself... today I estimated all my expenses and income... and it came out all the negative figures... gosh... scary... mmmm... so many options... so many consequenses... which is good? which is not so good? mmm....have to spend more time on it... god bless me~~~

I DO~ I DO~

Thanks for being there for me when I need you the most...

Thanks for accompanying me all the time...

Thanks for loving me deep in your heart...

Thanks for spending time with me when I am bored...

Thanks for your patients and enduring my mad temper...

Thanks for forgiving me when I go out of control...

Thanks for your supports when I am depress...

Thanks for your understanding when I said I missed him...

Thanks for trusting me in any circumstances...

And now... I am... ALL YOURS, My BB Dominic...

First Body Combat class in my life

Yesterday (should be this morning) slept at 6.30am and 10am has to wake up cause the first house viewing appointment is at 11pm... Today viewed about 9 houses/apartment... the agency I like the most is Steadfast Agency... Second go to... Morgan... the worst 1 is... CGT (I'm sorry... the house that you showed us is really disgusting and not worth for price...far more to improve...) I really love Steadfast Agency's letting house... all is in good condition and posh looking... plus their website has even included online house viewing video... the house we decided to take is allocated in Hanover street... is quite expensive though... but no choice... cause others houses/appartments really did not took our heart away except for this one http://www.steadfastproperties.co.uk/hanover-street-town-centre-2-bed-apartment-2/102/ Negotiating with the owner now, hopefully she can gives us a cheaper rent and we will sign for a year long contract... shouldn't be a problem:)

3.30pm only finished all the appointment and was really tired... fly back home and have a nap... then 7.20pm!! Body Combat!! Wow!! Highly recommend all my friends to try it at least once, I'm very very very sure that you all will like it... plus it make me sweat! not a lot but at least i sweat!! I felt so so so relieve and happy after the class... I like it so much... to those who 1 to keep fit 1... I'm sure body combat will help... I love the instructor... she is so energetic, so friendly... the most important is i love her body... very firm and sexy... I wish I could be like her.... soon! soon! soon! I hope tomorrow my muscle would not pain till can not go to work la:P Friday I wanna try again! who wanna join? It is really fun fun fun... I love BODY COMBAT... here is the short demo for Body Combat... enjoy~~




Nice right!! Try it!!

Happy Sunday

Haha... Today morning overslept... 12.30pm 3 of us only depart from home to go to Sunday Car Boot sales... Super nice weather! so sunny today... not cold not hot... just nice... when we arrived there, people already started packing things and balik rumah d... but some big store still haven closed yet... faster go buy vege, eggs, fruits... then Ruby and BB feel like eating burger... I am not a fans of burger at all... so special requested for egg and cheese burger... hehehe... nice and cheap!! £1.20 only:) so cheap... and I bought a non-fiction book!! I was initially attracted by the notice that the seller stick on their store saying that all $$ will go to cleft lip foundation, and it led me to a book with a cover of a very familiar person to me, ROBERT PESTON!! My idol... and that non-fiction book " who runs Britain?" is highly related to my dissertation... £1! sapuh! Hahahaha..... (oh ya... to those who never been to the car boot sale... must go la.. it is worth going:) something special in Cheltenham... it is just like pasar pagi... got fruits got vege got expired food got mamak got... many many others weird weird things... from 9am to 1pm every Sunday)

After that ruby has to rush back to work, we send her back and I thought we might as well to shop for a while since the weather is so nice and I never shop for long time already... first went to Republic, Dim Zhi! shop there for about an hour and debited my bank for £87!! I just simply can't resist the clothes that I like when I feel it look nice on me:( so... £87 gone... after that dont dare to shop anymore... faster cycle back home in case I spend till my bank overdraft again...

Then went back home... rest for a while... Go Yoga lo... BB do Yoga damn funny... I was like trying to not look at him in case I will laugh out loud and disturb the rest... but sometime I did secretly look at him and laugh secretly... hahaha...

Till now almost 12am still haven touch any of my revision and dissertation yet... Holidays always make me feel lazy and inefficient in doing my work... I guess I always do more work during term time instead of during holiday... haih... NEED TO WORK HARDER NEXT WEEK! Jia You:)

*Thanks Ruby for bringing the chicken salad for me:) I love it!Muacks*

*Thanks B for company me for whole day and go Yoga class with me:) I love all the pictures very much! Shall I post it here?*

My forever best friend...

Today when I was swimming... I was thinking what should i blog today? I been wanting to blog about... you... my best friend... but honestly... I always feel "best friend" is not enough to describe our friendship... but i still haven figure out what is the best word to describe our relationship...

I still remember I wrote something in Word and saved in somewhere half year ago when we were in a serious argument... Let me find it out... and show you... here you go...

I have a best friend

She is caring…

She is gorgeous…

She loves me more than loving herself…

She gives me whatever things that I requested…

She put me as her top priority…

She had seen me as an angel…

I remember…

When I said I feel like eating Greggs, she went all the way to town just to get me a chicken bake in the morning..

When I said I headache, she can give me an hour massage …

When I walking back home during the late night and she found out, she run all the way toward my way back just to company me…

When we buy stuff in Tesco she always does not allow me to carry heavy stuff and she will take most of the heavy one…

When I fall down and hurt myself, she will immediately check whether the injuries are serious or not…

When I said I need some drama series, she will try her best to look at those Chinese words and download for me

Early morning before I work… she purposely wakes up just to see me eating breakfast and send me off...

This was no where near complete... actually what I wanted to say in that moment is... She has been treating more than what i deserve and it has led me to start avoiding her as I was scared of her being nice to me... that argument was really serious till i thought I am going to lose my ever best friend in my life... eventually our strong and firm friendship solved all the problem... all the problems have been solved through communication...and let me introduce her once again...

She is a girl who I know for... 5 years...She is someone who I don't remember how and when we started to get close...We had been through a lots of things... She was my room mate for the past 2 years...She was someone who I used to spend most of my time with her... She is someone who I always relied on... I always cry out loud in front of her and tell her all my problem and she never ever did that to me... She is someone who love me more than anyone... We care for each other... nothing is fake between us... The time we hated each other the most is when we fall as sick... that is the time we hate the other why did not take care of your own health properly... There is uncountable memories in our mind that no one is able to take it away from us... I am glad that I has her as my best friend my life... without her... I would not be able to achieve as far as I had achieved from the past 3 year...

She changed a lot... from a very dependent person to a very independent girl... and now i have on blame her for allowing me over rely on her for whatever things... I know She always feel that I do not trust her... always feel that I do not know how much she care for me and love me... and here I am to tell her that I know how much I mean for you and how much you value me... and it is same here for me... I am proud to be your best friend and I felt lucky to be your best friend...

I am glad that recently you started to believe someone who can take care of me well... and you gave him a chance to love me... trust me... your support mean a lot a lot a lot to me... you have given me confident to love again... and believe true love existed... I am sorry for not loving myself and always tearing in front of you for the past few years... I promise... it will never happen again... Nowadays, I can always feel the sunshine when I wake up... and I hope it will be the same for you as well... you got one less burden(me) now! We will always be happy k?

Ruby... I swear... no matter what happen... nothing can break our friendship... not even a bit... I love you forever beee..

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Friday again:)

Can't believe today is Friday:) The happiest day of the week:) But is it now 2am already! why the time passed so damn fast... I finished work at 4pm and after that went to Waitrose buy cakes for Ruby and BB, planned to surprise them:P then went back home and pack things for swimming... Reached BB room and I was really sleepy... yesterday slept at 4.30am and this morning wake up at 8.30am... 4 hours! not enough at all... was actually planning to take a nap in BB room... unfortunately I slept till 8.15pm! Sport center will be closing at 9pm... and I still determined to go:) good girl... swam for only half an hour and went to steam room for a while... then people started to chase us out... ok lo... went to tesco bought 3 melon for only 47 pence each! reduced price... DAI DAI... then back home cook fried rice... Ruby and BB also said nice:) satisfied... then! realised 2am already!! wanted to sleep but still very full now... stone for an hour then only sleep la:P

B... thanks for treating me good and taking good care of me:) I love you... a lot a lot:)

First Yoga class in my life

Yesterday slept at 4am and today BEBE woke me up at 9.45am in the morning!! Luckily he has the patience to wake me up... if not 10:30am I will still be nicely sleeping on my bed and skipped the Yoga class!

The Yoga class is not as hard as I imagined... I did not sweat a lot, not even a little, and until now I don't even feel a bit of muscle ache... kind of like disappointed, but I will still be joining the class la... better than nothing:P the teacher is totally not same with what i imagined, i thought it will be a slim and sexy lady teaching me... unfortunately... an old man stood there when I walk into the class... Next will be Pilates or.... Dai Chi? worth trying!

Then went to find Felicia, Kartz and BB to eat breakfast... Dim Zhi... 12pm Felicia and Kartz still sleeping and not ready to eat breakfast yet... so, end up just 3 of us eating lo...and it was soooo nice... eggs, hot dog, sausages, bread and bake bean... satisfied...then lepak in BB room and find for houses... Tuesday whole day will be viewing houses... some of it look damn posh... and of course their price also damn posh la...

then 6pm go back home and get ready to PC world and sainsbury... finally we decided to cycle there... and it is not as far as what i thought... quite fast though... damn passed by KFC!!! haven see the restaurant already smell the KFC already... 3 of us have the same thought! dinner! BB bought a 22 inch LCD monitor in PC world... he seems happy haha...then Kartz came and we have dinner together again!!! KFC.... 12 chicken 4 fries 2 side dishes and 1.5 litter pepsi for 14.99... love the feeling of having dinner together... Karthik was cute but a bit scary also... hopefully he will relieves his anger soon...

Then came back home... BB was like can't wait to set up his monitor... but i understand la... just like i can't wait to try my new clothes at home lo... and I feel so happy to see his exciting face... hope you got what he wants la:) Dont know why he said thank you to me though... because I carried it back? haha... actually i just want some exercise that's why I said I want to carry it back... cunning... me.... keke...

Today ate so many fattening stuff... tomorrow gonna swim 25 laps... all the best:)

Spendthrift Jocelyn...

Today after work... straight fly back home and pack my stuff to swimming... I joined their membership today! Unfortunately the price has gone up already... by 1 pound... some more just started to change today 1st of April... Gek Sei Ngo... So, every month I have another £30 expenses plus soon I am going to join the... unlimited access in Cine World... £11.99 per month... gosh... Spendthrift Jocelyn... here I am...

So... I am going to join their Yoga class and pilates... and make sure I make use of the membership... recently, swimming seems like stop being effective on my body anymore... I like the feeling of sweating and muscleache... but long time didn't have both of it already... Since Shy Yee said Yoga can make people sweat a lot... so I will give it a try!!

Hopefully the weather will be warmer soon! I want jogging!! This summer should be nice... Looking forward to it!! Esther is coming in June... hooray... It's gonna be super duper fun! I wanna go Alton Tower... I wanna go to seaside, sit on the beach and hug my bb (any seaside will do, never been to any of it)...

My bb today a bit naughty... but never mind la... since it is holiday... let you be manja a bit la:P Love u...

I am in love

And now I am belonged to someone who...

• been treating me like a princes...
• likes a bebe... so cute... and so naughty...
• is not the perfect one to others but to me... he does...
• calls me b....
• is the first person who bought me a ring... a really nice one... so pure... i love it...
• always buy me flowers...
• wake me up every morning and make sure that I have woke up then only go back to bed no matter how sleepy he is...
• always sleep after i slept...
• always look into my eyes and talk to me...
• has made me cards even thought he is not good on it... and they do look weird... but they are all my treasures...
• cooks for me... "what you want?" "mmm... kong po chicken" "ok!"
• is always optimistic... and that is why he has got me and brought me endless happiness...
• can let me 100% rely on him... settles stuff for me...
• i wish i could be with him forever...
• wrote for me... "10 things I love about you"...
• bought me PANG PANG to accompany me sleep when i am alone...
• will cry when i cry...

He always...

• looks at me... it's like... I am the only one he could see in the world...
• hugs me... so tight... not letting me to run away....
• kiss my head... and it means the world to me...
• packs my bag when I am about to leave the house... he always fill in with all the things that i need without me mentioning what i actually want... what he asks is... which bag you want to bring today? never thought someone can do that to me... when you first time did... I was really shocked...
• trust me... and I will do the same to him...
• unpack my bag after I came back from swimming... and again... no one did that to me since i was young... not even my parents did...
• put me to bed... and sayang my head till I fall as sleep...
• give me freedom... let me do what i want... respect me... and let me make my own decision...

And I hope we will never ever be a part... and I am going to tell the world that... I AM YOURS... I AM ENGAGED... I AM NO LONGER AVAILABLE... and I LOVE YOU B... *TO BE CONTINUED"

Reborn

This used to be a "secret blog"... no one know about this blog except if someone purposely go search about it la... Nowadays, blogging seems like a very hot topic... and I always can see the good and bad side of it...for me, the pros is of cause building up memories... I like to read blogs that consist of pictures and some daily life things... I always wonder why some blogger can remember some tiny things in their life and blog about it... I respect them deep in my heart... I guess it will be damn nice when they read back their blog and see some silly stuff they did...

There and still many good things about blogging... such as... to tell your friends who care about you that you are well or unwell... it is a fact that sometime we couldn't inform all of our friends about what had happened in our life... but when you blog about it...at least those who concern about it would have read about it... but, the cons are... Sometime peoples do blog about what they hate and don't like... or about someone had offended them... it will feels damn bad when you fell the one who hated by the blogger is related to you or it is actually you... specially to those who are very sensitive about being hate by somebody...

I used to blog when i am sad or depress... or, i will blog when i am abnormally happy as well... I did blog about my cooking and baking stuffs, I did blog about my travel experiences... but, i had stopped from blogging for more than a year i guess...

I been going to swimming frequently for about 2 months... I love the feeling of swimming... I did not care how much it cost me and i just can't stop myself from going to swimming... I feel refreshed after swim for an hour... as normal, yesterday i went to swim again... I think of lots of things... and I swam non-stop for an hour... all so suddenly, i felt relieve!!! totally relieve!!! relieve from some matter that bothering me from the past few weeks which is to accept the fact that my ex who broke up with me few months ago has had a gf and accept the fact that I had been betrayed again and the most essential element that drag me out from the darkness is realizing the fact that someone silly has always been there for me all the time when I needed him and taking care of me when I felt depress and sad... many many many more memories refreshed in mind... many scene came out and to sumarise it is... I am getting ready to... fall for someone silly...

From that on, I will never think of how many times my ex cheated me... how many times he betrayed me... how many times I forgived him... how much I loved him and how much i sacrificed for him... because all these are no longer worth for mentioning... no longer need to bring it out... no longer important to me anymore... I forgived him and we should now be 100% a part and move on...

From that on, I belonged to someone who....... *to be continued*